Sorry's not good enough

So tell me, why is it always me? Why does my word mean nothing? Why is everything always my fault? Why is my sorry never good enough?

I'm tired of feeling guilty for nothing. I'm tired of explaining. I'm tired of always taking the blame. I'm tired of apologizing for things I haven't done or said. I'm tired of being the black sheep. I'm tired of being attacked for no reason. I'm tired of proving my intentions.

I don't know what to do anymore. Should I fight back? Should I just let it go and move on? Should I impose upon the same measures as others use on me? Should I become as mean as others? Should I attack back? Should I blame others?

I wish I wouldn't have to think about things like that. I wish I could just live my life in peace.I don't even care if that sounds selfish because I believe I deserve a bit of selfishness for all the sh*t I've been through.